The South Asian girls guide to surviving an Eating Disorder

Eating disorder is something the South Asian Community hardly ever speak about . With deep rooted ancestral issues mixed with the new wave of social media body image visuals we have a group of females that need a lot of help mentally and physically.

My own journey struggling with an eating disorder lead to years of self abuse and hate. Trying to uphold traditional values and fit into the western society I found myself at times with an identity crisis. To abide by customary rules and regulations as well as trying to find my way to break away from the linear narrative and what is expected from me was something that took me a long time to make peace with. read more

How to win at your your new training regime

The first two weeks of my transformational programme is called the BASECAMP. This is where the magic happens where I learn about each different client and help them correct their form and technique, crucial if they want to succeed in their overall goals. ( I will speak about why form and technique is a necessity on any fitness regime on another post) read more

7 Ways Strength Training Will Change Your Life

Strength Training

You get married. Have a baby. Move across the world. Start going to night school so you can get a degree. All of these are life-changing events that make you a different person. But did you know your life can change significantly just by spending some time strength training?

That’s right—if you’re willing to commit to strength training, your life will change significantly in seven ways. Here they are.

How I overcame my coffee addiction.

For the first time since my teenage years this has to be the longest period where I have not consumed coffee.  Exactly 5 weeks, woohoo, well done me.

So I hear you ask “so what?”

Coffee has had so many controversial debates whether it is good or bad, or how much we can consume, and so on.

Anyone who knows me knows I love coffee.

I love the morning ritual of waking up and thinking about the smell of the thing in the jar, I love how it tastes and how I feel after wards.

For over a decade it has helped me wake up and come alive. I also had a very good belief  about my coffee addiction which was “I simply DO Not function without it first thing in the morning”.

Coffee was the drug I needed to feel energized and mid day I will need another hit like a cocaine addict needs their fix.

My SELF BELIEF about coffee was actually causing me more harm than good.

Let me explain.

This soothing hot drink is what powers me to maximize my energy in the gym and give me that little ooomph for life. The thought of not sipping it in the morning used to frighten me. It’s the thing that also made me look like a mad hatter doing 10 things at a 100 miles per hour and not completing one task in the end.

I realized as I was growing up things used to agitate me more and the feeling of nervousness was over taking my life. I put this down to my job as a coach running around constantly looking after clients.

But it was at Anthony Robbins seminar I became aware of my addiction and how it wasn’t so great for me after all. I mean as a Coach I know everything in moderation is good for us and if I drank enough water to the ratio of coffee intake I would be fine. Somehow this wasn’t working for me.

The shift started when I was crewing at the Anthony Robbin’s “Unleash The Power Within” at the end of March 2015. Not only did Tony speak about the elimination of coffee but for those four days I was waking up at 6am there was no COFFEE in the house.


I had a full on 13 hour day ahead of me and there was no coffee.

On the first day I remember telling myself “I will only have that coffee at 12pm and lets see how I cope in the morning”

Bizarrely enough , I was just as hyper and energetic from the time I woke up till I had that it. So it made me think, If I have been this energetic without the need of a coffee then why do I drink it and rely on it so much and why am I in this state of thinking that if I don’t have a coffee I will not function ?

You know it only went hand in hand with what Anthony Robbins was talking about the whole weekend at the seminar,

1) Our belief system creates habits for us

2)Our thoughts to a situation can create so much good and bad

3) And our perception of things allow us to view things in a positive or a negative way

And so there it was that little voice that said to me “you do not need the coffee you are just as mad without it”


Boy was I glad to hear that voice and actually experience the full effects of my own natural energy through the next few days without any coffee.  To feel my own energy without any external substance was a huge deal for me.

In the weeks to come, I replaced coffee with hot lemon water and then juiced every morning. I wasn’t tempted to drink coffee and it turned out to be a small challenge to see if I had the discipline and power to not drink the beverage anymore.

Each day to replace the old habit was a triumph for me, each day I realised I wasn’t as weak as I thought I was. Each day I used that to channel my focus and energy in other areas of my life.

I was more energetic than the days I had coffee, I realised I wasn’t as agitated or anxious. It is very rare for me to get those mid day energy slumps now and my workouts are just as hard and intense without the kick start of coffee.

So I realized it was ALL IN MY HEAD. The story I had been telling myself for so many years had finally changed. And this is also the same thing we do when we are faced with certain situations in our lives when it comes to change or uncertainty.

Our story about a situation prevents us from progressing, for example

  • The pointless relationship that does not serve our purpose anymore
  • Going on a healthy lifestyle change
  • Getting that new job
  • Asking someone out on a date
  • Asking for the promotion at work
  • Coming out of our comfort zone

Everything is very scary at first but if we can change our belief system and wire it to something better, we can gain maximum results from a small change to everything in our lives.

My new belief is “I can drink coffee if I want to but right now I choose not to”

And I am now also saving almost £48 per month by not purchasing flat whites and cappuccino’s in the coffee shops.

Holy crap that’s the first time I calculated that. £48 per month? What joy is it to eliminate an expensive addiction to his liquid?

We have to remember that habits can never be eliminated, it stays with us but the good news is that it can be replaced.

Challenge for you:

Find something that you love but could also be preventing you from reaching your goals, for example your love for chocolates or cakes could be stopping you from getting to your desired weight.

In the first week decrease the amount that you consume. If you feel this is making a change and is going well, eliminate this in the following week. If this is too much and you feel unhappy and need the cake or chocolate fix you can try to substitute it for dark chocolate or gluten free rice cakes. Not everyone likes dark chocolate (at first) but try different ones. My ultimate favourite one is Lindt dark chocolate with hazelnuts and I know people who hate dark chocolate but have fallen in love with this one.

Be creative and play around with it like I did for a few weeks with lemon, lime water and even juicing. 

The client who didn’t know she could RUN, until she TRIED

I write this LONG article for two main reasons I can stop talking to myself when praying and meditating (been bugging me since a week now ) some people can realise how they limit themselves just by the way they think at times.

The latter will be more beneficial I hope.

Every single person that comes to work with me, I either get defined or redefined.

I learn something new or unlearn old material.

I see myself in them and they see them in me.

Weirdly our paths cross in paradoxical ways, yet we understand one another.

Some of their personalities shine, they say and do funny shit, the next day I will wake up still laughing and giggling like a hyena, thinking about that moment.

I guess they all become a part of me during the time we work together on the Fitness Reborn UK transformation programs.

Each day is a new day that brings with fresh challenges and obstacles but each week I get to see breathe taking breakthroughs from my determined clients.

I egg them on.

I cheer them on and always remind them to “trust the process, to trust their bodies and their minds”

Dropping weight, on this program is just a bonus. Everything else about them changes in a magical way.

They evolve in the way they speak.

They walk differently.

Their confidence soars through the roof in a matter of weeks.

They are able to breathe better and with ease.

Their smile speaks a thousand words, because they finally had that sweet taste of being able to move freely in their bodies.

Most importantly they have taken control over that emotional eating pattern or even better they end up falling in love with exercise and their bodies (Mission accomplished and yes , I guess I have that swag).

So you get the overall picture I hope, anyway moving on, I took on a client who started the twelve week process back in December 2016, the festive period.

We started our initial cleansing and detox part just two days before Christmas day. ( whoever said it is hard to stay on top of your fitness during this time has been lying to you).

Before I go on (and with her permission) I want to build up a profile of this client.

She has been a big girl almost her whole life, 20 stones in weight.
She is 36 years young, so only three years elder than myself.

She recently got promoted to a senior manager role at her work (Because that’s how we chicks roll).

Has a loving partner whom she has been with since forever (he has been supporting her in amazing ways)

She is the eldest sister and I also want to mention that her ethnicity is Indian ( this is important as cultures have a huge impact on the way we look too).

She spent most of her life comfort eating. No thought in her food intake whatever.

She had been an emotional eater most of her teenage and adult life.

Her desk job meant sitting down all day and she used to be one of those people who wouldn’t move much (but recently that all changed during the program, I heard that she likes to walk whenever she can).

Naturally her body got used to doing less activity and going to the gym for her had always been a nightmare because she was conscious of other people looking at her and making fun of her.

Some folks are cruel.

Anyway let me get to the point, since we started in December all I had her do was basic movements such as walking, squatting, breathing and lunging.

Due to her weight I couldn’t go crazy in each session in case her existing injuries got worse.

Side note: I am a sensible coach and work with each person’s emotions and what they are ABLE to do at that given time.

Together we worked on addressing the issues she has had in the past with food and the lack of exercise, we worked on reprogramming her mind set in so many different ways and getting her to love herself as she is.

She is indeed a very attractive lady and her vibes have a good effect on me, I like training her.

So far she has stuck to everything I have been educating her on and I thought to myself since it has been seven weeks into the programme we definitely have to change her routine a little.

Now that she could move better it sounded like a good plan.

So outdoors we went to do our session, all the time thinking if this is a good idea for her or what if she cannot do it and feels bad.

I trained her and another client together that morning so they had healthy competition with one another.

This client hadn’t ran in any of our sessions, her physical weight just wouldn’t have allowed her to do that.

The first run we did was getting her to jog in and out of the cones and then when she reached the last cone her job was to sprint back to the start.

I got her to take baby steps with me beside her all the time.
She ran WITHOUT stopping, in my head now I am thinking ‘WTF she just ran’

Next round I got her mentally prepared “I want you to work at 50%, which means you give me 50% with everything that you have, YOU GOT THIS!!!!”.

I wished you were there to see her face as she huffed and puffed through with the pace and reluctant to stop.

I stood there smirking, tapping her on the shoulders I said “ WOW damn you fkn ran”

She then replied “MY ENTIRE LIFE (catching her breathe) … I DID NOT KNOW I WAS CAPABLE OF RUNNING”……

OMG!!! (I’d read that again to understand why I had to write this article)

I just stood there, in awe, what she said was deeply profound, deeply moving and certainly very emotional for many reasons.

As I registered what she said the only image that came into my head was of the big elephant that was tied up by a rope.

You see we all hold ourselves hostage in our thoughts and minds to the things we think we can do and cannot do.

This can be in every area of our lives.

The baby elephant when it is born is conditioned by humans to stay in one place tied up with a rope, if it moves it gets physically abused by humans.

The elephant grows up to be a grand, elegant, powerful and strong creature HOWEVER it has convinced it self it cannot break free

Crazy right?

We all sometimes tell ourselves a story that captivates us in many ways.

This clients story and her fitness works as a beautiful metaphor to what else we can unlock in other areas of our lives.

Our brain is a pattern recognising organ, it will only repeat what is of importance and the more we tell ourselves something or do, it will be an automatic behaviour as to the way we live our lives on a day to day basis.

So I invite you to just think about all areas in your life where have you perhaps limited yourself or even conditioned yourself to believe you could not do it?

It could be that job you always dreamt of.

Somewhere to travel.

That book you have put off doing because you keep telling yourself you are not a writer.

That class you wanted to take for years and years.

Make a list and start taking small actions to get to that destination, it all starts with one simple step.

Crisps and chocolate time for me now

Nazia xxxxx

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Hijacked by my sugar fix

Yesterday I carefully proceeded to having my first cake. Treat of the year I called it.

Having told myself I need to go easy with the treats after witnessing the pants get a bit too tight it was easy to re train my brain with love and affection to avoid it for the new year.

I have had a few small chocolates pieces in the precious days without going mental and I felt cool and having seen my body shape up quite quick after the festive period I was chuffed.

Costa Coffee to do my favorite carrot cakes. I sat there savoring every mouthful. It tasted good but then not so good at the same time. I felt baffled feeling this way. I like cake a lot you know.

Anyway I came back to train a client at work. Feeling slightly full up, I noticed I felt slightly slugging and My belly was uncomfortably bloated. Unusual seeing I just had a coffee and a sugar fix I thought I would be hyper.

Straight after my client left….. hit me.A sudden wave of tiredness and irritation took over my body.
I had just over two hours till my last client came in.

So I tried to fight the tiredness by getting some paper woke done.

My focus had altered and I did pretty well past two weeks without the need of a nap. So was fighting that urge to close my eyes. But at the moment the comfortable sofa was just calling my name.

Obviously being a trainer I knew that eating clean for a while and suddenly consuming sugar it had taken an adverse affect on my body but I really wanted to be in denial. I eat cake a lot so what on earth was going on now? (Sidenote: I also train hard to work off the calories)

I gave into the need of a nap. 20 mins ended up a full hour of snoozing sitting upright, head slightly tilted back on the sofa at work.

I had crashed out.

Woke up feeling grouchy and with just 30 mins left before my next client came in I had enough time to freshen up and pray .

Prayer was a joke as I felt my body just going through this motion of bowing up and down. There was no clarity in what verse I was reading let alone if I was repeating myself twice.

I finished late and was super hungry by the time I got home.

I had dinner prepared so it was a bonus..but laid out in front of me were some shortbread cookies my sister had brought.

Past few weeks I didn’t even crave anything at home and was able to resist anything but yesterday there was no thinking process behind it I went on to taking a bite telling myself it will only be a small piece. Yeh right.

I finished the cookie in one go …like magic it had disappeared.

After dinner and an hour later
I found myself scoffing down more dessert with a thick Belgian choc.

I felt I had no control and with the burst of exhaustion I really didn’t care by this point.

I spent the evening in front of the TV watching meaningless stuff, it’s very rare you will find me sat still but last night I was jaded, people at home irritated me
I didn’t feel like moving and was ready for bed by 9pm.

I knew what had happened

I got hijacked by my sugar fix.

It took over every part of my rational part of brain and decided to go into a frenzy leading to want more and more sugar.

It thrived and multiplied and so did my cravings .

And so it occurred to me, the past few weeks I have felt energetic and had a very clear head. I spent 2 months in 2015 where I was feeling low and was constantly eating cakes sweets and any sugary snacks. I got so used to being cranky and moody I became accostomed to it. Feeling tired became the norm and with no energy within me I kept looking for that fix. Only those fixes were slowly killing me .

I woke up this morning with a banging headache. Thirsty and I was more annoyed that I wasn’t able to wake up for my morning prayer. I found myself thinking negative things too

I did what I could do best which was to train, drink lots of water and overcome last night’s loss of control.

Our daily habits and rituals all determine the person we become and the sooner we all realise that sugar is in fact a poison we can come to control our thoughts and bodies.

So next time be careful of your sweet treat and don’t be left in a coma. . .

I am off for a nap now. Happy Saturday.

If you need help to get back on track, I am here to help

How To Have Presence and Power In An Uncertain World.

Presence and Power

I know too well being ME sometimes can be overwhelming and too often I get stuck in who I was and who I really am at the core of my existence.

I get caught up in the romantic ideal of love, fixated on my day to day acts of living and sometimes too much of a coward to come out of my comfort zone, It sucks, it really does. The nerves and frustration kicks in, along the way and you can wake up knowing what you have to do and what you are doing are two totally different things.

We are numbed not to have a voice, we cannot express our sexuality, or harbour our gifts in the normal way we should be doing.  In a nutshell somehow we get caught up in being average and lead a boring mediocre life yet come to have this inner battle where nothing seems right and the only thing you can do is escape by overuse of holidays, drug abuse, food abuse, and alcohol.

If we look a certain way we are judged, for some we grow up thinking our every move and act will have an impact on our families as shame and reputation is something that comes to overshadow what we want to be and who we are.

It has taken me a long few years, years of falling, failing , breaking and remolding  to come terms with the authentic me. With my smile and energetic self I am able to hide away the pain and sad days. To some I am perfect, Imperfectly perfect, I like to call it. read more

Why You’re Gaining Weight (and how to stop it)

gaining weight

Tired of gaining weight? Of course you are – none of us enjoy it when the number on our scale begins to climb. So why are you gaining that extra weight now?

That is a valid and frustrating question. And the answer is often found in recent changes in your life.

According to Edward Abramson, Ph.D. the author of Emotional Eating, “Any change in your life circumstances can produce changes in eating and exercise, which leads to weight gain.”

Let’s dive into the major changes in your life that have caused that annoying weight gain…

Life’s Fat Traps:
We all gain weight for different reasons. You often hear about one-size-fits-all weight loss solutions that take little or no consideration of how the extra weight piled up in the first place. To experience true weight loss it is important to understand why you gained it in the first place.

Think back to the time in your life when your weight was just right. Were you in your teens? Your twenties? Or maybe your thirties? Picture yourself as you were at your ideal weight. Now when did things change? Was it a gradual addition of pounds that accumulated over a span of multiple years? Or did you gain it all at once?

Check out the following weight gain triggers and determine which one is responsible for your plight.

The college years are some of the easiest for gaining weight. In fact, a recent study by Cornell University found that on average, college freshman gain about 0.5 pounds a week – almost 11 times more than the average weight gain among 17-and 18-year olds and almost 20 times more than the average weight gain among American adults.

There’s nothing like holy matrimony to encourage a barrage of calories to overtake your diet. Late night comfort snacks are always more enjoyable when you have someone to share them with—and who better than the person who pledged to stick by your side through sickness and health?

Talk about a great time to gain weight! And we’re not just talking about women here—most men admit that they gained ‘sympathy’ pounds right along with their wife. Hormonal changes along with strong encouragement from everyone you know to indulge in anything their heart desires leave most pregnant women with a feeling of entitlement when it comes to food.

Though you may not realize it, your career choice plays a major hand in your weight. Those who go from an active lifestyle to spending 8 hours a day behind a desk and another 2 hours commuting almost universally gain weight. Conversely, people who spend their 8 hours in constant motion find weight loss a natural byproduct of the job.

New Habits:
Close your eyes and go back to the fat trap that triggered your weight gain. What changed in your lifestyle? To help sort things out, I’ve broken things down into two specific behavioral categories.

Eating Habits:
Did your eating pattern change at this time in your life? If your weight gain occurred in college then maybe you went from eating 3 square meals to an all-you-can-eat buffet style cafeteria. Or if marriage was your weight gain trigger, then maybe you went from eating small meals to fattening comfort food. Pregnancy brings on the perfect environment for a change in eating habits. You go from eating normally, to eating ‘for two’, to munching on your baby’s snacks right along with him! Your job can also dictate your eating schedule. Long hours and early meetings may cause you to grab a donut or chips from the vending machine.

Activity Level:
The second category that leads to weight gain is your activity level. Simply put, what kind of exercise were you doing before your life changing event and how does it compare to your current exercise regime? Chances are good that you were doing more exercise before your weight gain began—which means that you are doing less exercise today! Go ahead, think back to the exercises or physical activities that you used to do and compare them to your schedule today.

Your Transformation: You’ve figured out which fat trap in your life led to weight gain, and then narrowed down the exact behaviors that changed as a result, so this naturally leads us to a solution.

It’s time to make a change.

Call or email today to get started on a fitness program that will make you immune to all of life’s fat traps.

Once you start working with me, those numbers on your scale will quickly change direction. Let’s do this!

The reason you can’t lose weight

There are few things more frustrating than not being able to lose weight.

You want to be slimmer and to tone your body, but your weight won’t budge.

Read the following 7 Weight Loss Blockers to discover what is standing in your way and how to quickly and easily begin your weight loss journey.


Your mind is your number one ally when it comes to achieving your goals. However, until your mind has been programmed for success, it will do more to derail your efforts than to help you.

  • Take a few moments each day to visualize yourself at your ideal weight. Imagine how it feels to look the way you’ve always wanted.
  • Protect your mind from any negative self talk. If a negative thought comes to mind, immediately reject it.
  • You want to be thin and fit, and yet you think of yourself as out-of-shape and fat. Re-program your mind to think of yourself as fit and attractive, and you will be well on your way toward achieving your goal.
  • Give up the belief that you can’t achieve the body you’ve always dreamed of. See it first in your mind, and then in the mirror.
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    Finding Myself In Faith And Fitness

    Faith And Fitness

    I talk a lot, I get excited, fall in love quickly, I go from 0 to 100mph within seconds, I can be bold and at times I can be timid. I am able to like certain things excessively, and then get bored way too fast for my liking. I am also the type of person who needs to be constantly doing something to feel satisfied or fulfilled or I get agitated and my mind takes me to dark places. Like a child I have major tantrums and after a few days of victimized sobbing I am ok.

    That was me growing up.

    Trying to find meaning to my life and at times over analyzing everything

    I was born into a Muslim, Bangladeshi family. Naturally we are taught how to pray, how to read the Quran and follow Islamic rules. My parents also ensured we learnt our mother tongue in speaking and writing. I could speak and understand Bengali with no hesitation. However, understanding Arabic was something which I could not grasp but I knew that it was compulsory for us to learn the Quran and pray.

    By the time I was 16 I had read the Quran at least 8 times but after that as my own personality took its place I was questioning things. Culture and religion easily gets mixed up in the duality of ones ethnicity and religion. Trying to find my own identity proved difficult as I was battling what I was supposed to be with what I wanted to be and naturally a realm of anger overtook my personality and character.

    I quickly found myself rebelling in a lot of things as a teenager. I had parents and a culture who were constantly telling me what is right and what isn’t. This thing called sinning and another called guilt lived hand in hand. As I developed eating disorders and became anally self conscious I somehow found myself on a path of self destruction.

    I never recall to praying five times a day growing up, it was only the morning Fajr prayer that I did without fail. When it came to fasting I somehow excused myself and skipped a few here and there in my 20’s. At a point faith meant very little to me and I did not feel bad about it too.

    With all the anger and frustration infused in me I decided to take up boxing. This is where I really lost myself deeper. I lost my self trying to find meaning to my life and make sense of what was going on around me. The pressure of fitting into society, the pressure of fitting into this ideal version of what my parents wanted me to be, the pressure of being a perfect role model to my younger siblings. I became none of that. Thus became a battle field in trying to be this so called “me” without even really knowing “me”. I was beginning to become a pleaser for everyone around me.

    I questioned myself time after time what was wrong with me. When I look back it, Boxing was the only release I had from anxiety and tension in my life, it gave me a great purpose but hand in hand I found very little pleasure to my sanity of being peaceful. Peace is the word I had been seeking for most of my life.

    My thoughts and my mind were carrying a million things and the only way out was to train and train and train. I would train till I was exhausted so I can sleep without any thing troubling me.

    I spent almost 9 years of my life just searching for something unknown to me. I soon became a Body Transformation Coach to help others achieve goals in fitness. I realized that I help people with what I needed most help with when growing up.

    Within those years of being a trainer I still found myself very hyper, not so focused and with the media out lash on Islamaphobia it made me question my faith deeper. One thing I used to always ask was, people like Muhammad Ali, Yusuf Islam (formerly known as Cat Steven’s) Malcolm X (who did later revert to Islam and his name before he died was Shabaz Al Aziz ) and likes of Mike Tyson — “What was so magnificent about this religion that made iconic people turn to it? What was it about me that couldn’t resonate with this religion yet I was gifted with it and born into it?”.

    There was a lot of emptiness within my heart yet I could never find anything to make me content. For years I searched until I performed my Umrah in Saudia Arabia in 2014. I was very reluctant to go with the family but I made the journey and the connection I felt cannot be described.

    If I am honest I had totally forgot about my duties as a human to our creator, and I knew why too. I hated it being thrown down my throat; I hated this notion of how cultures created their own rules and regulations to excuse certain things. For 10 full days I followed the journey of our Prophet (PBUH) and the footsteps of some of the greatest women in Islam and it made me realize some of the questions I had been asking were not the proper questions I should have been asking. Looking back I was most probably questioning more of the people around me and not the religion itself.

    As I came back to the UK I felt so lost, so consumed, so rushed and that peaceful feeling left me. My prayers were not as connected as it was when I was in Saudia Arabia and soon I found myself not taking prayers as seriously as I should have.

    I prayed when I needed God and that was when I was in trouble. In my happiest moments I forgot God. As the years went by I felt a silent death within me. By this time I almost felt like my heart was dying inside of me. For three months I felt pure sadness in my body and mind and it did not matter what I did I could not get rid of it. I called it a spiritual death. As the winter fall came I enrolled into a workshop by Yasmin Mogahed. I loved her seminar as it was psychology mixed with Islam. It was perfect for me and she was talking my language. It was also a time I felt I needed rescuing , to elevate this heaviness from my heart. The one thing I still remember till this day is her following statement:

    “When we are ill we seek the doctor , the doctor gives us medicine. So when we are troubled and feel restless always remember the medicine for the heart is PRAYER”

    And there it was, the missing element from my life. So I challenged myself to pray for that week.

    I set a time for each prayer and gave myself time to meditate. Normally when making dua I would always ask for things. Now when making dua I show gratitude for what I have and by doing so there has been a shift in my mindset.

    I prayed and stuck to my challenge, first for a week, then another week and then another until it became a habit to pray. It became fun too and before I knew it, my soul was being called to prayer. If I had clients I would take 10 mins out and ensure that specific prayer was completed. I am not perfect all the time but by adding prayer and meditation into my life I feel so much calmer. That peace somehow came by magic. I started to attract more, I was able to think more rationally but most importantly I felt myself become stronger. My workouts are so much more exciting and I can carry on knowing who I am inside. My trip to Al-Aqsa mosque in Palestine also made me aware of so many things about myself so I came home to work on the small habits that no longer were serving me and I found myself loving myself a little bit more and express my emotions.

    In conclusion to this, I realized that culture messes elements of religion up. It cannot be forced on anyone and everyone has their own way of dealing with religion and the purpose they use it for. One should never feel guilty and I believe the guidance is important and the meaning behind what people learn needs to be explained too, in everything. I feel so many of us are so lost in this society and we are always constantly looking for a fix. We find solace in so many things, for now mine is a beautiful religion called ISLAM, though the world may see this religion as a threat I see it filling my vessel for that feeling of contentment and peace.I use it to serve me the way I want it with a fine line of balance giving me levels of discipline and also organizing myself around each call to prayer. It has also taught me to accept myself as a Body Transformation Coach and excel in what I am giving to my clients. So many times we miss what is already in front of us and closer to home than we think.

    My name is Nazia Khatun and I find a little peace in Islam.

    “What you seek is seeking you” Rumi

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